Yesterday I saw our girls perform in Phantom of the Opera. They had the opportunity to do the play on the big stage at our Performing Arts Center with a live orchestra, magnificent costumes and surrounded by the most talented kids. It was visually stunning, and the quality of the music made it difficult to conceptualize that all of these were kids from our community. My body was there, but my head, heart and soul were with you because today is the 7th anniversary of your death.
I watched and I listened. Then he sang:
Then say you’ll share with me one love, one lifetime.
Let me lead you from your solitude.
Say you need me with you, here beside you.
Anywhere you go, let me go too.
That’s all I ask of you.
It was as if you were sending me these words to remind me that even seven years cannot sever the connection of our hearts and souls and commitment to each other.
You came to me In a dream last night. I felt you wrap your arms around my waist in the middle of the night and adjusted to the exact right position to feel you against me. It was warm and comforting and familiar while also being missing for so long. I woke up both comforted and sad as I heard the rain pouring on the roof and realized it was just a dream and, like the last seven years, you are not beside me when I wake up.
Keep coming to me in dreams. Keep reminding me that you are still with me. Keep sending me messages that you are still around me and have not forgotten the bond and closeness we shared for 35 years.
That’s all I ask of you.
I love you.
Your wife,